So Impossible

So, here I am again, typing my felings down on this venerable computer. I can't wait to get out in the real world, none of this small=town life. I mean, sure it's ok. But I want to get out there and experience the world first-hand.

First-off, college. I'm seriously thinking of being a journalist. Or a photojournalist. It sounds so amazing. Just watching my dad and Scott hammering out newspaper after newspaper sounds perfect. Plus, I like to write. Photography just seems amazing to me.

Secondly, relationships. I haven't been in a serious relationship in two years. These two years have been the lonliest of my life. Sure, I have a great best-friend. But I can't tell him everything. See, he has a girlfriend. He has an outlet to talk to somebod. All I want is somebody to talk to, seriously.

I want to love, and be loved.


I feel all by myself. I have all this pressure on me, doing well in school especially. That's the number one thing my parents are pushing for, and I almost don't even care anymore. Honestly, I don't even think I'm going to get into college. I mean, yeah I have a 3.59 GPA but that doesn't matter, the SAT's or ACT's is what matters to colleges. And I know I'm going to suck it up big time on those. I don't even want to think about it.


I'm planning on going to the University of Minnesota Twin Cities. But, Jordan is planning to go to St. Cloud and live with Abbey. Which means that next year could be the last year that we're best friends. Which depresses me even more.


My whole world will be caving-in in the next year and a half.


My only wish is to be happy.